For a while things seemed to have settled a bit, you were growing but the changes were subtle, you had tantrums but the majority of the time you were easy going and lots of fun. You stuck to your routine and you seemed to enjoy your routine, you liked that you knew what was coming, it seemed to give you a sense of comfort. Each day we watched as you soaked in all of your surroundings, whether it be at home, the library, at a restaurant, even in London. You had your second birthday just 3 weeks ago and suddenly in what seemed like such a short time span you have changed.
It almost seems as though the changes happened overnight, although I’m sure that isn’t how it happened. You are becoming your own person. You are starting to realize this too and so you are trying to assert your independence from us constantly lately. It started kind of small, you told us you weren’t going to eat lunch at lunch time, and then each day since then you have let us know of each and every thing that you will and will not do. I thought it was that you were just trying to be bossy, but after reading up on some of the sleep issues you are having right now I see that it isn’t bossy that you are trying to be, it is ELEANOR that you are trying to be. ELEANOR who is her own person, separate from Mom and Dad. You tell us that you aren’t going to rest at nap time now, even though you happily crawl into your bed and cozy up under the covers. You tell us that you aren’t going to bed at night even though you go through the whole bedtime routine happily and again smile when I kiss you and tell you goodnight! It is the night time that I am having issues with dear Eleanor. At night now about a half an hour to and hour after I put you to bed you begin to yell out to me, and this isn’t just crying, what you are yelling are words, sentences, feelings even. For the past four nights now you yell out, ‘Mama, Ella has pees, Ella needs to pee on the potty’ (which you should also know you have told me you weren’t doing anymore so I had given up on the whole potty thing for awhile)! So I go up and let you sit on the potty, the first night we did this once, the second night three times and so on. However now that I have caught onto the game we are playing we only did it once last night, even though you woke up at 1AM, 1:30AM, and 2:30AM crying about the same thing, well that and that the blanket wasn’t covering your toes. We are going to work on this sleep stuff dear. I don’t do well without sleep, this is just one of the reasons you don’t have a sibling yet, I can still remember what it was like to have a 3 hour stretch of sleep be the longest you get in days, weeks and months.
The moments when you are talking about other things, things other than what you will and won’t do, are really wonderful. You seem to use your imagination even more now and you put your dolls to sleep and you feed them in your pretend kitchen. I even caught you hugging ‘Sage’ this morning telling her, ‘I love you Sage’. Sometimes when we say I love you Ella, you say ‘I love you too’ back, all by yourself. These are the great moments! You also sing, and you sing a lot. We went to get an ice cream yesterday and you sat and sang, ‘Fruit Salad, Yummy Yummy’ and another woman at another table heard you singing and commented how she knew that song too, is there anyone out there who doesn’t, the Wiggles are everywhere! You can tell us a little bit about your day, like that you held hands with Anna at the library and that you had Spaghettio’s for lunch. When we were playing in the backyard yesterday you played with our neighbors Amy and Amanda instead of just watching them play. You took Amanda’s hand and asked her to chase you. It was great, you made me smile, although you always seem to do that pretty easily! You are sweet, smart, beautiful and oh so energetic, I always seem to find myself marveling over how much I love you and how blessed you make me feel, …even on the tired and cranky days!